I had a dream last night about the boy I had a crush on from age 12 when I met him in youth group, until age 16 when I got my first real boyfriend and Crush Boy had gone off to college. He was a very good choice as a high-school crush, because he was kind to me and didn't take advantage of my feelings, which in true Constance form I unwisely confessed to him via NOTE, as if all the Blatant Mooning wasn't totally obvious to everyone.
I don't think it's too revealing to say his name is Jim. And when I did NaNoWriMo a few years ago (when pregnant with my youngest and looking for distraction from the 'round-the-clock nausea), I wrote a book about a woman who had an affair with the high school crush who finally liked her back, and then found herself pregnant with a baby who might be her husband's or might be her high school crush's.
Jim is the only guy I would consider an actual danger to my marriage: that is, I was so attracted to him back then, and he seems like SO MUCH my type even now (he's similar in personality to Mike), I don't think it would be safe to have any contact with him now. It's possible that if I did actually meet him it would totally defuse the attraction (this has certainly happened with other, less-significant crushes), but I think of it as not worth the risk with Jim, just in case.
I'm Facebook friends with his sister so I see his picture from time to time, and pictures of his nice wife and two children: three more reasons it would not be a good idea, just in case.
I laughed so hard at "in true Constance form I unwisely confessed to him via NOTE"!! HAHA! Oh YES. Been there!
ReplyDeleteI have a very similar person, my first boyfriend who is strikingly similar to my husband. I HAVE seen him as an adult and it's okay. We're both married, with kids. He's no longer an adorable surfer boy but a balding dentist. The problem is, if I squint (or, you know, DRINK) I still see the adorable surfer boy in him....
I'd love to read that NaNoWriMo book!
ReplyDeleteI have a similar crush guy from my past and we're FB friends (at his request, not mine). I thought it might be a problem (he's still single), but after about fifteen nasty political FB posts in a row, I realized that there's a reason why he's still single and why I married the great guy I did. Definitely not a problem anymore.
I hate when I have dreams about old loves/crushes. It somehow erases all the helpful "time and distance" you thought you had in reserve, and makes them seem so close.
ReplyDeleteLove "blatant mooning". LOL. I did a lot of blatant mooning toward various boys, too. So embarassing now!