Trade-Off

Ug, I dreamed last night I had a one-evening stand with a guy I had a two-evening sit (i.e., no Actual Doing It) with in high school. I dreamed I went to his house and then afterward he was talking romance and I just wanted to escape. I sneaked out and ran all the way home. I woke up feeling crappy.

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I reduced my psychiatric medication to the previous dosage level and I feel MUCH MUCH BETTER. I can feel my MUSCLES again. This is embarrassing to describe but it's such an indicator of How I Feel that I'm going to describe it anyway: normally if I, say, lean down to get something out of the fridge drawer, I'll stretch a leg way out behind me for balance, just because it feels nice to stretch/balance that way, or if I go down the stairs I might sort of PRANCE, horse-leg-like, delaying on each foot with the knee bent, again just because it feels nice to use the muscle that way---and I've started doing things like that again after a long time of my muscles feeling too weak and tired for that.

Unfortunately, I've also been crabbier and more snappish. These trades are very hard to figure out.